I got my namecards today lei! :D

Btw I tried out the W660i liao. It's my phone in candy bar shape with nice engravings at the back. Kinda disappointing. :(

咕噜肉 and lemon tea. $5.20! And it's only a kopitiam at some void deck near Jurong polyclinic. Kaoz.

On my way home on the bus, this kid (4 or 5 years old) sitting opposite me kept flirting with me. Winking and smiling with his cute little dimples. Lol. Then when he had to get off the bus, he said bye to me. Haha. So cute. He's gonna be a lady killer when he grows up.

This is a very cool post that I saw on Theo's blog. Holy wall of text, batman. Again!

A group of professionals posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds,
"What does love mean?"

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
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"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

Rebecca- age 8
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"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."

Billy - age 4
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"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

Karl - age 5
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"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

Chrissy - age 6
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"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

Terri - age 4
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"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

Danny - age 7
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"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"

Emily - age 8
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"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

Bobby - age 7
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"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"

Nikka - age 6
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"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday."

Noelle - age 7
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"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

Tommy - age 6
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"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

Cindy - age 8
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"My mommy loves me more than anybody .
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

Clare - age 6
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"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."

Elaine-age 5
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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

Chris - age 7
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"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

Mary Ann - age 4
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"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

Lauren - age 4
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"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

Karen - age 7
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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."

Mark - age 6
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"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."

Jessica - age 8
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And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old
gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

I love the red color version of this phone. Just check out the engraving man. I love this kinda designs.

I wanted to buy the red color version of K610i when I had it, but the red only looked good in pictures and looked kinda gross in real, so I ended up buying the gray version.

I think this phone is worth checking out in real. :)

Oh yeah, I went to see my skin doctor again yesterday. Restarting the whole course of medication. Will try and post a weekly update. But gotta need a camera with a good flash (to show all the blemishes) and you guys will need a strong stomach. Hahaha. :D

I'm going off to Phuket end October with JJ and gang. :)

Ok, CS totally surprised me last week with his reaction at the coffee machine downstairs when I was talking about my sugar daddy. Apparently it shows how much he's not informed by the grapevine in the office. Lol. To prevent further confusion, here's a post introducing the characters! (Since Muffin is damn confused as well)

Sugar Daddy - A guy friend who lends me freaking loads of books and brings me to movies. A lot of movies. Referred to as the niu friend here. He DOES NOT, I repeat, DOES NOT, give me money/gifts at all. Lol.

Girlfriend - My female colleague who usually has the exact same taste as me in food (except that I don't share her passion for steamboat) and we both enjoy quick witted humor. Plus she's damn fun to tease and always blush when I ask her funny questions. :p

Kawaii 老公 aka JJ - My NUS cum APAPA mate! Check out her wonder woman strength here.

好姐妹 aka XJ - My NUS cum APAPA mate too. She was the one who took this obscene video.

Kawaii 老公's many wives - 1st wife: her poly classmate, 2nd wife: me, 3rd wife: Liz, 4th wife: XJ, 5th wife: Rinna.

The van is coming on Wednesday, under my uncle's shop name. Dad bought insurance for all drivers so that I can drive it too. :) I love my dad. Haha. He's gonna bring me out for late night driving to get me familiarised with driving again.

I wonder how much I have to contribute for the van. Won't be able to contribute anything initially since I'm paying off ma fan, but I can contribute a bit later on. :)

I received the best gift today!

Going to Chinatown to check out tour stuff with JJ and XJ later. We're going Phuket in November October. :D

As the guys were cooking (we only had one BBQ pit and one kitchen), we were fooling around and taking crazy photos, hence the lack of guys being featured. :x

Molested!




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We only have 12 people, you know. Lol!

Wa, check out the view from Gunawan's condo. You can see that everybody is richer than him. All the chia hong chu.

Fairy Bee Ling

Bee Ling and I were supposed to wear wings and sell coupons. Mine in blue (this pair) and hers in pink, but Jane didn't bring the other pair, so we didn't wear the wings in the end. That's a pic of Bee Ling trying the wings out. :p


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I got conned by Seow Tiong to buy a can of beer from them, gave it to Ben to drink. He said I look like a Beer Lady (hence the pic). Yong Teck actually offered me a can of beer. What a surprise! Lol.

It's been a crazy weekend. Some things just try once in a lifetime can le. 我知错了。And I feel bad about it.

I really appreciate friends who tell me things the way they see it. These are the bestest friends that I can ever have.

I watched 881 with my parents! I think the last movie I caught with them was An American Tale? That's like eons ago!

The show is a must watch (as I have been saying in a lot of my previous posts). The costumes are absolutely gorgeous, the songs catchy, the plot touching and the hokkien funny. I really dig movies that are touching, even though they always make me cry. Haha.

一人一半（合唱版）

一人一半 感情不散
一人一素故 感情才会久
时光累积 安静的泪滴
一心去追 爱那么可贵

这样的人 这样地等
无非是 等个回应眼神
为爱翻滚 不计伤痕
甘心为你一生都浮沉

这样的人 别笑我蠢
傻傻的 心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷 就算残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半 感情不散
已经找到爱 为何要离开

时光累积 安静的泪滴
一心去追 爱那么可贵

这样的人 这样地等
无非是 等个回应眼神
为爱翻滚 不计伤痕
甘心为你一生都浮沉

这样的人 别笑我蠢
傻傻的 心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷 就算残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半 感情不散
已经找到爱 为何要离开

I met someone during the weekend and I finally realize what is love/lust at first sight. I've been dying to want to know everything about this person since the day we met, but I know that we'll probably never meet/speak again, because of the circumstances we met under. Maybe this is just a passing infatuation. But then again, I haven't been infatuated with any guy in the recent...6 years or so? Interesting.

This feeling of infatuation is giving me inspiration to stop mucking around with my life and be a better person. So... at least one good thing come out of it. :)

Saw this at Sheng Siong last night and bought a pack. It tastes really nice chilled! Like... liquefied red bean potong ice cream.

Changed my bedsheets today, it was freaking tough maneuvering the heavy mattress by myself. D: And putting on the quilt covers took quite a while too! But I really like the colors! Huat ah!

The other set that I bought is white based with flowers, it needs some light yellow green plain colored pillow covers. I haven't been able to find the correct shade I want. :x

Met MZ for dinner, together with CS and Cheryl. BJ couldn't join us cos she double booked herself and had to go to the appointment she agreed earlier.

We had so much fun chatting. This is actually the first time I talked to Cheryl at length. I enjoy her company and she really hit it off with MZ too. Sigh, I miss Team 2. :/

881 by Royston Tan. I wanna watch this. Who wanna watch with me?

I borrowed the LG Shine to play with. The camera is really good (see pic). It's 2.0 megapix with auto focus. My Z610i is also 2.0 megapix, but it's not as clear.

I think the LG Shine looks really good and has a great camera, but it's not for sms heavy users. The buttons are as flat and hard to press as Motorola phones.

Got this from Evie's LJ. Blogger doesn't allow cuts like LJ, so... holy wall of text, batman.

01 Jan 2007
the secret of love
Dr Tan Chong Kee

We all have a list of what our ‘right’ person must be: he or she must be attractive enough, rich enough, has a good enough job, has a high enough social status… and then they must be funny enough, intelligent enough, generous enough, patient enough, good enough in bed... and then they must be willing to pick me up from work, not get angry when I cancel on a dinner date, laugh at all my jokes, dresses the way I like, think the way I do… Sure, some of the items on the list are the bare essential items that let you know you have met the ‘right’ person – and they are different for different people. But if they are causing us never to meet anyone ‘right’, then it is probably a good idea to examine that list more closely to find out what is going on.

Why is it still so hard to find the right person even after reducing our list to the bare essentials? Even if we start a relationship with someone who meets all our core essentials, somehow, something goes wrong along the way. Let me admit right away that I tried for years to find one myself but have so far only several close hits but no true success story to report. And I looked at my friends who are so in love. What makes them the ‘right’ person for each other? What is their secret? How do people who are truly right for each other recognise each other? What is it that they look for in another that tells them: yes, this is the one for me? I really wanted to know so that I could find mine.

And then the true meaning of my friend’s answer dawned on me. The man to whom I’m willing to give 100 percent will be the right one for me. And similarly, the man from whom I will receive his 100 percent will pick me as his perfect match. The secret to love is ridiculously simple: it is the willingness to give and the willingness to receive.

Have you ever met someone and very quickly become attracted to them? That is the sign that you could potentially be each other’s perfect match. These are the people who fit all our core relationship essentials. As long as you are not emotionally shut down, your body and subconscious mind will let you know it very quickly through the feeling of strong attraction.

Whether or not that potential becomes realised depends crucially on how much we are willing to give and to receive. Love demands no less than our all. We are either giving our 100 percent or we are not. No bullshit, no hedging, no middle ground.

This is a hard lesson for many of us to learn. We fear giving 100 percent because we fear losing control. We tell ourselves if we love another person with all our heart, they will take advantage of us, or they will take us for granted, or I will not be able to make them do what I want anymore, or they will not love me back... So we hold back. We think we can play the game of giving the other person a little taste of the good stuff, and then give them more if they do something we like, or withhold if they do something we don’t like. Or we withhold to keep them on their toes, to keep them guessing so they would love us more. Or we set preconditions: we will give 100 percent only if there is total commitment. We forget that love that is withheld will simply wilt and wither and eventually, we do not give not because we choose not to, but because we have no love left in our hearts.

Or we fear receiving 100 percent because we fear the loss. We tell ourselves if they found out who we really are, they will no longer love us, so better not open our heart to receive or the loss will be too painful. We push people away and play hard to get. We show our ugly side little by little, if they are willing to accept that, then we will accept their love a little more. It becomes a game of ‘how much bad dynamics can I make this relationship sustain and still keep it limping on’. Or we set secret targets to see if they meet them, or secret traps to see if they would trip. We would rather kill love than to face our fear of receiving it. Some might even fear both giving and receiving and play both contradicting games at the same time, flipping from one to the other at the drop of a hat.

If I had a thousand pages I would not be able to enumerate all the games of love that we play. We have learned these games from our parents, from our friends and from our environment. We might be clever enough to have invented a few of our own. And the really clever ones could even invent games that will fool themselves. But consider this: would we still truly love and respect someone if we actually succeed in manipulating them? Isn’t it clear that these games will only lead to lose-lose end results? Isn’t it obvious that in using them to prevent what we don’t want from occurring, they become precisely what will cause the results we most dread?

Why then do we hang on to these games when they are causing us so much anguish? It is, ironically, because we are afraid of getting hurt. But guess what happens when you start playing games? You draw your partner in and sooner or later, they will respond with their own games. We thus create for ourselves this tragic vicious cycle: We play games to avoid getting hurt. These games cause us great hurt. So we hope that a more skillful play will give us the upper hand next time. Fear leading to pain leading to more fear leading to more pain. Relationships now become the place for us to refine our game-playing skills, as our mind churns out a hundred reasons why we must ‘win’ at all costs! Is it any wonder that so many people have completely given up on love? And we blame the world for it, without ever realising that we are creating and perpetuating our own hell.

But what about the hurt, some might insist, we cannot ignore that possibility can we? I am reminded of the lyrics that ask this question very poetically: “some say love, it is a razor, that leads your soul to bleed” And there is no better answer to this question than these same lyrics:

It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
That never, learns to dance,
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
That never, takes the chance,
It's the one, who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to be,
And the soul, afraid of dying,
That never, learns to live.

The secret to love is there is no secret. Find the right person, then give and receive 100 percent. The deep dark secrets are in the games, and there is no need to dwell in those bleak and lifeless depths.

Are you still playing games with the one whom you love? Now is the perfect moment to take stock and ask yourself what you really want: to be ‘safe’ and ‘right’, or to find love. There will be pain whichever way you choose – one is the dull pain of slowly dying, the other is the quick pain of being alive. And there is also a difference in the pay off: in one, you get to feel superior if you ‘win’. In the other, you get to surrender to true love.

Happy New Year to one and all, and may we each have the courage to reach for the love, the joy and the fulfillment that are in all our destinies.

Dr Tan Chong Kee holds a Ph.D. in Chinese Literature from Stanford University in the United States and is one of Singapore's best-known figures in civil society activism.

Went to the dentist's yesterday. She took off my rubber bands and gave me back normal braces. Previously I was having ones with hooks in the metal. I dunno what purposes the hooks served but it seemed important for the operation.

Anyhoo, she said that I'll be able to get them off before my birthday. :) Which is like, in 3 months.

I was late for work this morning cos of there photos! Lol. Was printing them while eating breakfast. Haven't had time to print them after work cos I was busy gallivanting. Lol.